.58-- It's been a while..

It's been a while since my last post here..
I have actually been busy, just living.. trying to figure out what the hell I want for my life..
Funny enough, I play hip hop a lot more now .. it gives me energy for some reason :) makes me feel good and all =)

So yea, boyfriend who I thought I would be with for a long time, is apparently gone finally, it was difficult for him to let go, but I think i finally got him to stop stalking me. And don't get me wrong.. I'm not a hypocrite, it's just that you know.. no need to stick around. He didn't do what he had to do when it was time, I let slide so many things I can't even believe it so.. time for you to fly baby boy!
The more I think about it all, the more I understand why I was with him and at the same time I get in which sense we wouldn't have worked out.
I think in some twisted way I wanted things to be over, If we actually did happen I would have had to change tons of things about myself I'm not sure I was ready to change nor give up.