"Your current Relationship Status. If single, discuss how your single life is."My relationship status: Undefined. Single. As per lack of a better term.
By now I think my single life and I have a relationship on their own. Life being single is definitely a rollercoaster and for me it hit many stages since though I have not dated as much (or maybe "as much as -average people my age- ") I still am a character that stopped being used to being single a long time ago.
Here's a summary:
*The breakup.
* "Yay I'm SINGLE!! I owe nobody anything. I CAN DO WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT!!" Unlimited freedom and feeling of having the power to do everything, anything, whenever, however and without letting anybody know.
*Getting back to the friends I sort of put aside to spend time with my bf. Re discovering how friendship is the best in the world. Best family you could every ask for. Because you choose every member of it.
*Re discovering activities. Going out like you're an average 17 kid (i was un-average nerd and didnt go out at my teen years, I had tons to catch up). Re discovering music styles, dancing styles (dancefloor dancing, not ballet :P ) .. And the joy of socially drinking :)
* (months later) Missing the company of someone (a lover, not a friend) that truly means something to you. Cherishing those that know you enough to like you for YOU. and NOT your ass.
*Going out some more. Making new friends. Anything to hide the fact you kinda feel lonely when there are no roomates around and the overthinking kicks in.
*Plans. Plans keeps us moving, brains busy, eyes on the goal. Making plans and thinking " Even if i wanted a Boyfriend rightnow - which pff of course I don't - I don't have time for a boyfriend rightnow. It would fuck with all the things I'm planning for my life. - YES. Convincing myself that a Boyfriend would be an unconvinience at this point. Cuz there's still much to see and much to do to go and settle with someone.
* Going out with guys that are either going to leave the country, not boyfriend material, or both. Just because of the reason mentioned above. PLANS to stick to.
And that's about it. It kinda ends there so far, at this point I'm obviously on the last point with the addition that with this "undateable" guy I would actually screw my plans cuz I like him better than any other hook up. But oh well.. Life being single.. it's a tangling thing, it sure is fun, but you of course at some point wonder when it will end and kinda wish that time will come with something suuuuuper good (good abs, good butt, good sense of humor and A-wesome sex xD )
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