30 Days challenge Day 4-

"Your views on Religion"


I guess if i had to define my views on religion in one word that word would simply be "unsure". By this I mean yes at this point in my life I'm unsure of what my view on religion is.

The whole debate of whether god does or doesn't exist is something I left behind around a year ago when I had to stand hours upon hours of atheist people making atheism sound like a religion (the religion of believing that there is no god and it's all a scam to take advantage of people).
I was raised in a Catholic family, and as such I was active in church at a very young age. The stories I was taught at church, being as I was -around 7 years old- I didn't fully comprehend them and took it merely as someone wiser - a.k.a adult person in charge- teaching me something that was factual. I didn't really analize it further than that, I just sorta took it, accept it, embraced it and moved on. Church was for me a way to interact with people my age in a healthy enviroment and to run from home when I didn't like what was going on there, like the money issues my family was going through and such. Church gave me comfort in those moments so I just embraced that (once again) without really looking at the bigger picture - again, i was too young-

Later on as I was getting my education, more and more things about the "church" let me down. Making my decision not to devote my time in it anymore as I lost respect for it.
At that moment of my life was when I started being unsure about gods existance, I thought if i didn't believe in the church that maybe that also meant I didn't believe in god. But to be honest, I knew I believed in something, call it god, call it greater spirit, call it whatever you want I had faith and believes.

So I reached a point where I would say to people, I believe in god I just don't believe in the burocracy that implies the instution behind it, I believe in god but I don't believe in the pope, the vatican, churchs and priests. And who could blame me.. I mean you only have history to back up some nasty things they've done "in the name of god".

So yes. After several experiences in my life, after hearing the other side of the bell LOL for many hours :P I came to the conclusion that I believe in something but I'm not sure I can put it under any religion category.

I believe that people need to believe in something greater than themselves. I believe that believing in something, a greater being watching over us, gives us hope, and comfort. Makes us feel better when we're feeling down and makes us re think things sometimes. It's a sharp knife as it's a risky tool on those that go overboard with it (call it fanatics) but yes. The thought of heaven, or an afterlife or even re-incarnation make the mourning process of dealing with a close deceased a lot easier. The thought of someone watching over you when you feel like there's no way around things or that nothing's working out gives you hope that maybe something better and brighter is just around the corner for you. The sentence of "god has greater plans for you" is inspirational for you not to give up and to have faith that things will eventually turn out for the better.

I think that whether or not God exists, doesn't even matter. I think that what's important is that we have to keep a positive attitude towards things, not give up and have faith if it's not in ourselves, in whatever we can that would help us go through life.

So for me, I'm not sure God exists, but I would love to think it does. So if he exists, awesome. if not, he exists in my mind. Because I need to rely on something greater than any person. I need to think that everything will be ok, that everything happens for a reason and that what's meant to be will simply be. I need to rely on things like that so I choose to think this way. and no scientific, no guy with babbling on dates or innacurancies in the bible will make me change how I feel.

I wish we could all rely on the power of love, I wish Love was our religion, just loving one another and not wanting to hurt one another. But I think we're not ready for that yet. That reminds me of a book I wish I could re read (it's at my parents house, i'll get it back from them next week)



http://www.godsdirectcontact.org/eng/news/166/bk1.htm

30 Days challenge Day 3 -

"Your views on drugs and alcohol"

I've been thinking about this one for about 2 days now.. I either wanted to avoid the question all together or just give a blunt answer because that's how I feel about the subject all together. But to be honest, I would say on a matter of alcohol.. it depends. On a matter of drugs, it depends on what you consider drugs but if we're talking about drugs (by this I mean cocaine or anything harder than that) I, at this moment of my life, came to the following conclusion:
"Drugs screw everything".

That's it. That's what I think about it.
But maybe before saying this I should give you guys some background on me, what I see on a daily basis and Why I came to this conclusion.
1: I haven't done any drugs on my entire life. (no weed, no cocaine, no pills, not even regular cigarrettes if you even count those as drugs)
2: I do drink.. but it's not on a daily basis, it's more like social drinking.
3: I work at a bar. Therefore, people get hard and heavy on cocaine (and sometimes pills too) every single fucking day. And they consider me their friend so I openly see everything that goes on.

I see people that could be doing great things with their life, be so unhappy about their jobs and their routines that they take cocaine or whatever else to keep going. I see the deals with the dealers, and I see the insane amount of times they go to the bathroom to "get a fix". I see them transform from cool people to robots that work and work (just like a robot, non stop) and when you ask them how they're doing they're either honest enough -or still conscious enough- to tell you they need to stop but cant or they're just so hype by the drugs they want you to believe they're doing awesome.
The need they feel is something I haven't seen in my entire life, and the withdrawl is even worse.. spending days without sleeping and all..

All in all what my thoughts on drugs and alcohol are:

Alcohol: If you do it in moderation and not on a daily basis: There's nothing wrong with it, as a social act and if you don't get to a point where you feel an addiction towards it. I mean, the way i see it, there's nothing better than a beer after a stressing day at work, to relax while talking things off with your friends and such

Drugs: Weed for what most people tell me is not as addictive and tons of people can do it without getting addicted to it. So again, if you like the sensation it gives you and you do it socially, without feeling a NEED to smoke a blunt.. then go for it.
Anything else:Just STAY AWAY.

More and more each day I'm seeing my co workers destroying their lives with the use and abuse of drugs.. I can tell you it's not a happy road and it's really hard to get back on your feet once you fell for that one. So my advice: Just Stay the fuck away from that shit dude!!!

I everyday that go to work thank god for giving me this blessing under which I don't feel tempted by any of this. I sometimes though, get pretty affected by seeing them do what they do and kinda hide in the bathroom to try not to lose control or cry because to an extent it hurts me a lot to see how deep in addiction they are and how it's so hard for them to not be on drugs even if they try.

So yea, this is my reality and my view on both drugs and alcohol.
I pretty much wish cocaine, heroin and everything else along that line didn't exist. I don't know if the world would be a happier place, but I would but happier not to see the people I love fall under such things as drugs and actually do something good for themselves and their lives.

Song Challenge Day2

Day 02 - your least favorite song

I'm not sure I feel like saying much rightnow so I'm just going to post the first song that comes to my brain when i think about my least favorite song.. and by this i mean: Out of all my favorites, the least favorite one :P .. hopefully that will make sense!

Song Challenge day1

"Your favorite song"

Since this isn't facebook, no one reads and therefore no one gets spammed with notifications, I'm gonna display a few and not just one. Because it's really hard to narrow it down to just one.

In no particular order:

Kevin Johansen: "Timing"





Fiona Apple: "Across the universe" (cover)






Calle 13: "La vuelta al mundo"






Mika: "Lollipop"



Counting Crows: "Rain King"




Alicia Keys & Jay-Z : "Empire state of mind" (just because it reminds me of my travelling ideas and how much I'll enjoy NYC once I'm there :P )




Nas: "Hip hop is dead"

When Insomnia Hits for the better.

Hey! Yes, I think I'm getting more used to blogging now :)

So tonight, I'm not doing the 30 Day challenge thingy. Reason being that today's topic was "drugs" and I seriously had enough of that talk, drama and crappiness at work I don't even want my brain to go back to that train of thought rightnow.

Instead I'm going to share a little of what my last monday was :)
So, I'm off work on Mondays (have been for the past 2 months) so it became an habit to go out to this awesome hip hop - 90s music - classic rock - full of tourists and locals party on mondays :) .. That's actually where I met this guy I'm seeing now (LOL now.. just till the 27 *read 30 day challenge day 1 =/ * )
Last monday for the first time in 2 months I didn't go out to this party. In fact, I didn't go out at all! I came back from class, I took a shower, made dinner and had dinner at 1 am while watching online tv. I was bummed at first that I was staying home when I could be partying, having beers and chilling but then as the night continued I thought "Ok, maybe for once I will go sleep early tonight"

No no, LOL going to sleep at a "close to normal" hour is def not for me! Instead of getting sleepy, I got insomniac! LOL once I realised of the fact I was completely awake and insomniac at 5 am I said to myself ok, at least this time I'll make it productive!.. and I started tidying up my super super messy room

Now, pretty much nobody saw my messy room as I think in a way it reflects the way I am rightnow and the way the thoughts in my head are. My roomate told me once I should have things in order so I could think clearer. And I couldn't agree more! It's just that 1) I sleep too much -when i sleep- 2) I lack energy most of the times and 3) It kinda feel likes this was my own hole where I could bury myself in and it would eat me and my problems all in one..

Anyway, following my roomate's advice and trying to continue with the changes for the better.. here is the before and after (sooo glad my friends in Buenos aires dont read this blog :P !)


Before: After: After: and more after:



Sorry for the crappy quality on the pics, I took them with my phone :) So yea.. booo on having insomnia but yay on making something good out of it! .. Now it's 8 am so I think I'm gonna force myself to sleep again!

And yes! Pink is my favorite color :P (in case it didn't show) I overuse Youtube and I just started reading "Lasher" in english..

nightynight!

Another 30 day thingy!

30- Day Song Challenge!!

I found this on facebook and as it seems that these things keep me posting on here I thought I would give it a try! :)

So here's the 30 days list :) Here we go!

Day 01 - your favorite song
Day 02 - your least favorite song
Day 03 - a song that makes you happy
Day 04 - a song that makes you sad
Day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - a song that you can dance to
Day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - a song from your favorite band
Day 12 - a song from a band you hate
Day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - a song that describes you
Day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - a song from your favorite album
Day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - a song from your childhood
Day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Day 02 - Where you'ld like to be in 10 years.

"Where you would like to be in 10 years"

Easiest question. Yet I have more than one answer to it.

Preferable: Travelling around the world. Working on? Doesn't really matter, as long as i'm not completely broke (being poor and trying to see the world at the same time wouldn't be as enjoyable right?) and I get the chance to see as many countries as I can.



♦ Another Option: A really good one! New York City.
I don't know yet if i see myself actually living there for such a long time (as a 10 year period). The way I think of NYC is like, awesome place to see tons of things, but more like a continuation of my life in B.A really.
Because of how big and crowded of a city it is and how it has the same sense of people always being late to places, walking super fast, dealing with traffic jams LOL Stuff like that stresses you. When I'm 36 I might be too old and cranky to stand it on a daily bases and for a long time :P
Doing what? I'm not sure! Maybe working in something random, maybe working in something dance related (that would be better) maybe in love, with a baby on the way (yes, one of my alternatives is having a baby at age 35).


♦ Option numero 3:San Diego!













Doing what? Same thing as in NYC. Whatever life leads me to do. Reason: Because I always wanted to live in a city with a beach and I think San Diego is absolutely beautiful and fits the purpose. I know I could live there because no matter how crappy my day could be, living in a place with an awesome landscape that is so accesible would make any day brighter. :)


♦ Option number 4: My hometown Rosario.BUT! After doing option number1.

Yes. I think after travelling the world and seeing many many many many places I WOULD actually go back to my hometown and settle there. It's a beautiful city, full of beautiful places, beautiful people on which I can rely on and who knows? Maybe create something good, like my own travel agency, ballet company, Dance Studio, a program for exchange students to go study there and see how beautiful my city is.. anything. So yea, Rosario. Only after travelling the world :)